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Monthly Misspelled Musings from A Queer Child Of the Cosmos

Sunday, April 25, 2010

The Sunday Spirit: I'm poor, black, hell I may even be ugly-but dear God i'm here!



YOU are here. Today. Now. And Today I am asking you to stop it.Stop. Stop it right now. Stop the put downs. Stop the self blame. Stop the comparisons, release the shame and let go of the self hate. Stop finding every small detail about yourself that you don't feel is "up to par" by someone else's standards and berating yourself. Stop the "woh" is me and the pity stories. It's not what you came here to do and it is not reflective of the powerful, beautiful entity that you are.

Self hate Is a dis-service to the universe. It is a dis-service to god and a dis service to yourself. You did not come here, to this planet, devoid of purpose or mission. You did not come here to this planet; as a distinct unique entity ( There will never ever be another you in the history of creation) only to try to mold yourself into someone or something else. And quite frankly I'm angry with you. And underneath that anger is hurt. How could you not see yourself for who you are? How could you not realize all the light and joy you bring to so many around you? How could you overlook the talents and gifts you have within you? How could you look in the mirror and spit on yourself-which in turn;means that you spit on the face of God?
And i know the rap. The culture has taught us so much about self hate. If we look on the T.V at any given moment, it's communicating to us how until we get this "product" or those clothes we are not "fierce". Unless we wear this makeup, unless we have this body, unless we have this car we are not worthy. But let's be real for a moment. It's not just "them" right? Cause we are them-and they are us. The world without is only a reflection of the world within. So while we must hold the outer would accountable for the messages they send-recognize that if they are sending them then on some level, in some way-you are likely to be sending those same life-debasing messages to yourself and others as well. I want to invite you to stop.

No circumstance or situation is a reflection of your worthiness. They are a reflection of the path this world has created to deflect you from finding the truth that your worthiness has always been within you, and the truth that your worthiness is infallible. There is nothing you can do to shift it. That's right nothing. Cause the universe knows what you did ten years ago or didn't do today. And the universe will always hold you accountable through consequence and spiritual law-and the universe will always, always forgive you. No matter who you are. The universe is the only objective entity that exists. As the framework from which we live; it moves upon action and consequence; not the shifting morals of society or ego driven theology of the collective.

Today is a new day to begin something new. To start a new narrative of compassion. To start a new life where you are not your internal punisher-beating down on yourself for all you believe you are not or have not done. Today is a new day to love. To like. To embrace You. All the corners, crevices, blemishes, all of you. All the things the "world" says you should not. All the parts of you. Hug them. Hold them. Celebrate them and your uniqueness. Celebrate that there will never be another you! And you were given the chance to be here!

One of my favorite lines from the Color purple is when Celie says "I'm Poor, Black, hell i may even be ugly, but dear GOD I’m here!!" And how i interpret that; is that honey, I may be things you despise, dislike or hate cause you cant bear them as your reflection;But I'm here. “I may be Poor, I may be Black, I may be even ugly, but dear GOD I’m here” I was still CHOSEN TO BE HERE. And being things that you have issues with will not prevent me from celebrating my life. I'm going to Celebrate!! Because you may be (fill in the blank) but you're here. YOU are here. & It means that you have a purpose; that you are loved. and that if you stop all the self hate talk; you may be able to hear all the self love the universe is trying to speak to you.

In love, peace and healing
Yolo

1 Comments:

Blogger She Speaks! said...

You know this is one of my favorite movies!!! And one of my favorite scenes in the movies...thank you for capturing the essence of it within this blog...I LOVE IT!!!

April 25, 2010 at 10:33 AM  

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